That First Cup of Coffee

A long winter's nap is rudely interrupted by the loathsome clang of a cheap brass alarm clock. It's 4:00 am, and I grope hastily in the darkness to find this menace, and silence it for the next 24 hours. It will be a long time before I develope the ability to wake my self up at will, at any time, as needed. But I'm only eleven years old, and 110 editions of the Philadelphia Morning Enquirer are waiting for me. My mission is to count them, fold them, bind them, and then deliver them in the darkness before sunrise, to 110 anonymous patrons, randomly dispersed throughout the East End of Riverside, New Jersey.

I am a paper boy, and it's Christmas Day, 1964. I grudgingly free myself from the embrace of the warm blankets, and subconsciously slip into yesterday's clothes, left there in a pile on the floor. For a few seconds, I think about brushing my teeth, but then realize - what's the point. Within 3 minutes, I'm out the door and chugging along alone on my bike in the darkness and the crisp morning air. I ride the center line of the road; there's no one else out there at this hour, and on this day. It takes me about 15 minutes to pedal to work, time that I normally spend in reflection. The weather usually dictates how I'm going to feel for the first two hours of my day: wind is bad, rain is worse and snow is hell. It's pretty cold, but clear. So I got that going for me.

Before I know it, I pull up to the News Agency, where the papers are waiting for me, along with the 3 other boys who share in this miserable endeavor. We're not really poor boys, just hungrier than most, and grateful to have these jobs. Although misery loves company, the mood this day is festive for several reasons. First, because it's Christmas. Get the papers done, and then go home to the warmth and comfort that the rest of the world will be just waking up to. Second, because it's Christmas, that means that the newspapers will contain just news, no ads. It was with shock and awe that I first encountered the Thanksgiving Edition of the Philadelphia Morning Enquirer. Normally, I could fit 110 newspapers in the large wire basket on the front of my bicycle. But on Thanksgiving Day and every Sunday afterwards untill Christmas, the newspapers were so engorged with holiday ads, that it would take me at least two trips, even with the addition of two canvas bags hanging from my shoulders. It became demoralizing, and it was during this time that all four of us became proficient in the use of four letter words. But not today. The Christmas Edition is so thin and light, that we had to practice throwing them in order to find that unique combination of speed and spin that would enable this paper to fly like a frisbee. It was going to be a good day.

After a few minutes of horseplay, we settle into the task of folding and binding our papers. No sooner had we started when a station wagon pulls into the driveway. It's Joey's dad, Tony, and he offers to run up to the Delrando Diner for coffee. When he asks me how I take it, I don't know what to say. No one's ever asked me that before. After the proverbial long awkward pause, he answers his own question saying, "double cream, double sugar". We resume our task of morphing newspapers into projectiles while discussing the possibility of getting high on coffee. Joey assures us that it's safe. He drinks it all the time. Which might explain his tendency toward hyper active behavior, and why the nuns enjoy hitting him so much. We finish folding our papers and grow impatient for the coffee. All we really want to do is deliver the papers and go home. Just about then, Tony returns.

I'll never forget my first cup of coffee. It was served in a cardboard cup, with a cardboard lid, nestled in a cardboard tray. You don't see these cups anymore; they've long been displaced by styrofoam. My fingers delighted in its warm caress, and I hesitated to remove the lid, not wanting to let any of the heat escape into the cold space surrounding me. But the exotic aroma of coffee was enticing, and when I carefully pried the lid from the cup, I saw the blond liquid brew that was about to captivate me for the rest of my life. This coffee was strong but had just enough of cream and sugar in it to seduce the uninitiated. Nothing to this day has ever tasted as good. Every sip was deliberate, and it became sweeter as I drank it. And waiting for me at the bottom of the cup, was one last sip, only slightly warm by then, but full of undissolved sugar crystals. I was no longer cold or anxious about getting home. I felt at home in the universe, and became lost in this great eternal moment.

It had never dawned on me why Joey's dad had showed up that Christmas morning. I thanked him for the coffee and prepaired myself to venture out into the cold, winter darkness. No sooner had I swung my leg over the bike, when Tony asked me where I was going. Confused, and wondering if maybe I was getting high on the coffee, I started to stutter the obvious. "I, I gotta get these pa..." Tony cut me off in mid sentence saying, "Shut up and put your papers in the car... all of you. Dumbfounded by this turn of events, we silently scrambled to pack 450 or so Enquirers into the back of his station wagon. Two boys sat up front navigating, while two sat on the tailgate chucking papers while singing Christmas carols. We changed positions of course, as each paper boy knew only his own route. It took us a little longer to finish all four routes, but that was OK. Tony even offered to take me home, so I put my bike in the back and sat up front between him and Joey. I thanked him for his kindness, to which he replied, "No big deal."

The day was dawning, and I noticed house interiors beginning to warm with the incandescent glow of living rooms, and children who could sleep no more. And I imagined what it was like in those homes, and to be a child in another family. It was easy to do. Because, it wasn't that long ago that I was a child - before that first cup of coffee.